WannaBeNormal - My Search for Peace, Love

There’s no way to describe the pain I feel

I never knew my heart was made of glass until it shattered

It doesn’t matter what the chain of events were

It hurts to see that to you none of it mattered

All the time we spent together

All the good times and the bad

Everything we ever said to each other

Was it a waste of time what we had?

I don’t want to think that

That’s not the way I try to live

I don’t want to believe you

Because I still have so much to give

So I keep this pain inside

Locked down deep and tight

Just because I act ok on the outside

Doesn’t mean you’re right

Yes I am grieving and yes I do feel hurt

Inside I cry where no one else can see

That doesn’t make me insensitive that’s just how I deal

It’s just as real and it’s how it has to be

I may have been knocked down, but don’t count me out

This is not a defeat it’s not unsurpassable yet

As I weep for what I’ve lost I grow stronger by the minute

There will be a day I promise you when there will be no limit to what I can get

For now though I will hurt, I will cry I will take this time to accept my sorrow

My life hasn’t always been peachy; there isn’t one thing I’ve ever gotten that I haven’t fought for

And I’ve learned to let go of the innocence of youth, the empty promises of liars

But I need this time to regroup, to see things as they really are, to take stock, and to close that door

The door to the past, the door that has held me back by seeing only the good and not the truth

In life we sometime have to fail over and over to see things as they really are

And not for what we want and wish for them to be

Because if we don’t, we’ll never get very far

It’s hard when you can’t see yourself for who you are, you can’t see the truth in you

And if you can’t do that, how can you see the truth in anything

This is my time to grieve and to learn, to discover who I really am

And to decide if I mean anything to me, to anyone, to see if I am something

I’m sorry you can’t see that

I’m sorry you can’t see me

I can’t see me either right now

So this is how its gotta be