WannaBeNormal - My Search for Peace, Love & Empathy

Ok let me preface this by saying I AM NOT WHINING!!!!!!!! I am just venting because sometimes its a little too much to bear on my own, plus some of u might wonder where I have been LOL.

I have had a massive struggle as of late with about every part of my damn body. Some of u might know I am going to school online now as I lost my job in June and I gotta do something. This past week I had not only my normal assignments but an added 1250 word essay (my first EVER) and a mid term, plus 38 pages of reading out of a textbook (BIG yawn!) I am terribly horibly manic and i am being used as a guinea pig, unfortunately no drug has worked yet, but they do knock me out, a huge plus, most nites anyway, last nite I couldnt sleep to save my life, and have no idea why, it wasnt pain it was my brain not stopping……….

Anyway, THAT is all going on, plus the kids of course, and all the fun mommy stuff, plus Thanksgiving which I do all by myself, plus a sinus infection I have had for 3 months, NO JOKE, i went to the dentist because I have a partial plate and its ill fitting to the point its rubbing sores on my mouth cuz it broke and I have no money to fix it, the dentist said I have the sinus infection because I have my left top wisdom tooth pressing ON my sinus cavity, effectively blocking it, so bacteria has a place to grow (I know, ewwwww). So my mom is helping me get ALL my top teeth out and a full upper plate put in……………………………….

Then the other nite I think I passed a kidney stone, I will spare u the details but I about passed out from the pain, and that is SO not me, kidney STILL has a dull ache (lower right) and am afraid I will have more episodes like the other nite

Not to mention Christmas is almost here……………………..

Well you get my point, I am to the point of crying whenever I let myself think of all the things I have going on, dont get me wrong, I am so very thankful for what I DO have, but my health isnt one of them! I HATE BEING SICK!!!!!!!

Anyway, thanks for letting me rant for a bit. Its hard to keep the smiley face on right now

I just want you all to know even if I am not around you r in my thoughts and prayers and I am wishing us all better days

Take care, til next time!

Jo