WannaBeNormal - My Search for Peace, Love

Hello to all my cyber friends!

Sorry its been awhile, am working on some improvements to the site and had hoped to have them up and running by now unfortunately I still have a few kinks to work out, but wanted to go ahead and write this entry as its fairly important to me.

Thanksgiving is here (amazing huh? Seems like yesterday we were celebrating the fourth of July. Time is FLYING by lol) and I wanted to tell you a bit about what I am thankful for this year and share with you a bit about my Thanksgiving traditions.

We have a small Thanksgiving, immediate family only. We got tired of fighting relatives, feelings getting hurt, whose turn is it this year etc. We get up early just like everyone else I’m sure. I am normally first up, I turn on the parade and go about violating the bird. I HATE that part lol. Whose idea was it to shove the turkeys neck up its ass? It seems like a waste to me, the waste of time on the person who inserts the necks part, waste of my time pulling the crap out, and waste of food for me anyway, since I don’t use it. Nothing says Thanksgiving like stickin your hand up a dead birds ass first thing in the morning right?

Anyway, moving along. So after the ugliness is over, I get to sit down and watch the parade with the kids. They love the marching bands and colorful floats with characters they recognize. Then they help me prepare the rest of the meal, and in a half an hour, what took me two days to prepare and cook is destroyed. No big deal, everyone enjoys themselves, that’s the main thing. The kids help me clean up. Then NORMAL people go rest and watch football. NOT IN MY HOUSE!!!! A few years ago when I wasn’t preparing the meal myself I started the tradition of putting the tree up. The kids INSIST on it now, to officially start the Christmas season.

So hours later, the tree is up, stockings hung, children are full all snuggled in bed sleeping off the effects of the turkey. Now is my time. I like to sit back and watch the lights on the tree, and reflect on all my blessings in my life. I have so many, I am truly blessed and so thankful for so many things. I think of my Dad and Gram, my Thanksgivings past, and I remember the good times we had. Its bittersweet, I am so fortunate to have had the time with them that I did, yet I am saddened that they cant be here with me and my kids and celebrate. I think they are, they are watching, and they are always with me in my heart. It a good time for me really, this time of reflection. I think of those that arent with me and wish them the best, that their lives are as blessed as my own. I think of my kids, and how lucky I am to know such great little joys, and to watch them grow and help mold them into the wonderful they will become. I think of my friends, the ones I hold dear, close to my heart, and how lucky I am to have met them all even though it was illness that brought us together. Great things do come from the bad sometimes. So I wanted to tell you all, my good friends, and the friends I have yet to meet, I love you all and hold a special place for you all in my heart. Thanks for your kindness concern and caring, and I hope to be half the friend to you that you all are to me.

Happy Thanksgiving! Until next time!

WOW What a rough week and its only Wednesday!!! I feel like its already over and has kicked my ass twice to prove it lol

Yesterday we had my daughters first recital of the school year. I thoroughly enjoyed it. This was a show with all fourth graders, tho my daughter is also in the Honors Choir, that concert is yet to come. This show was more whimsical, and its so funny how in a crowd of probably close to if not over 200 kids, i can pick out my angel’s voice. She did an amazing job, the whole grade did, it was both sweet and fun, and there wasnt one part about it that I didnt love, tho i may be just a TAD biased I am looking forward to the upcoming events.

Then of course I get home and find a NASTY email from my sister. She says shes read my blog and to f’off. Also says she wont let me see my niece and nephew and when my kids ask where thier cousins are to tell them its all my fault that they dont get to see her and her kids. She was upset by my blog in which i said she was pissing me off……. I find this SO stupid because all my blog said was it was pissing me off that she didnt seem to care about moms surgery. We had a whole email conversation spanning six days with me saying the exact same thing! I begged and pleaded for her to come see mom before the operation. NOPE doesnt have time. WHO doesnt have time for thier own mom?????? Ok the surgery is during the week, I am taking off that day but I understand shes not able to, still she could come see mom in the two weekends prior. She said some mean and hurtful things, and I think its amazing how the people we love most can hurt us worst. I love her and I always will, she is a selfish person, but I accept and love her for her faults. I love her kids and she is punishing my kids as well as her own by not allowing them to know each other. Life will go on of course, and I will always love them, but its still sad that she has to act like this, we could be grown ups.

Anyway, mom had her pre-op today, all systems go so counting down until the 28th. I am more nervous by the minute………………

Thats it for today, will talk more when i have more to say, luv and hugs to all!!!!!